Why are you upset, honey?
Nancy:Jared?
宝宝怎么不高兴了
NANCY: Jared!
我要穿我的毛线衫
I want my jersey.
但是 它还很脏啊
Well, it's because it's dirty.
我就要嘛
I want it.
记住喽，今天是你
第一天上学
You know, today is your
first day at school.
哈？
What?
你特别喜欢
玩什么？
You like to play
something in particular?
足球
Uh, soccer.
喜欢踢足球啊
还有吗?
You like to play soccer.
And?
篮球！
And basketball!
最喜欢什么颜色？
What's your favorite color?
Uh...
蓝和黄
Uh, blue and yellow.
蓝...
和黄.
Blue...
And yellow.
和黄.
And yellow.
你长大了
想做什么？
What would you like to be
when you grow up?
骑机车!
Motorcycle driver!
(模糊的歌声)
(SINGING INDISTINCTLY)
Bye! Hi!
Jared. 该下来
吃早饭了
NANCY: Jared. You should
come down for breakfast.
JARED: 我希望这一切
不曾发生
JARED: I wish none of this
had ever happened.
但有时
万幸事已至此
But sometimes,
I thank God that it did.
(引擎声)
(CAR STARTS)
MARSHALL：来 跟我一起说
点亮自己
MARSHALL：Please, repeat after me.
Let your light shine.
全体:
点亮自己
CONGREGATION:
Let your light shine.
MARSHALL: 好，现在各位
觉得自己
MARSHALL: Now, let me see
a show of hands
不完美的
请举手
for those of you in this room
who are imperfect.
女生：所有人
WOMAN: Everybody.
很好
That's right.
再请觉得自己完美的
举起手来
And a show of hands for everybody
in this room who is perfect.
看来没人
成员: 阿门
Nobody.
CONGREGATION MEMBER: Amen.
MARSHALL: 上天赐予我
一位外表美貌灵魂深邃的夫人
MARSHALL: I am blessed with a
beautiful and deeply soulful wife.
和一个努力 杰出
And with a fine, upstanding,
诚实的儿子
and honest son.
我很幸运
I'm a lucky man.
而且永远感激
上苍的恩赐
And I'm grateful
for those blessings.
别那样 你知道
那样会让我很紧张
Please don't do that. You
know that makes me nervous.
一辆卡车过来
你胳膊还要吗?
What if a truck comes along
and hits your arm?
-大惊小怪
-有这样的事故的
It's never gonna happen.
It's happened before.
有的 有的
It has. It has.
AARON: 早
欢迎来到“爱行”
AARON: Good morning.
Welcome to Love in Action.
Hi.
名字?
Name?
Uh, Nancy Eamons.
我是说 孩子的
Oh, um, the boy, I mean.
除非 我误会了 您才是
Unless you're the one checking in.
Jared Eamons.
(小声)
(MUTTERING)
找到了
Got you right here.
好 要和
孩子告个别吗?
Great. Do you want
to say your good byes?
我能逛逛这地方吗?
Can I see the place?
恐怕您只能待在
接待区 Eamons女士
I'm afraid you won't be allowed beyond
the reception area, Mrs. Eamons,
你五点来
接他就行
but you can pick him
up at 5:00 p.m. Oh.
Okay.
没事，老妈
It's okay, Mom.
那随时联系 我在宾馆
打我手机就行
Well, call me any time. I'll be
at the hotel on my cell phone.
Uh, 我们会替他
保管他的手机
Uh, we will be
holding his cell phone.
紧急情况下
我们会联系您
If there are any emergencies,
we will contact you.
其他情况下 你五点来就成
But otherwise, 5:00 p.m.
(低语)
加油
(SOFTLY)
You'll do great.
爱你哦
Love you.
AARON: 新来的 Eamons.
AARON: Newbie. Eamons.
清空口袋
Empty your pockets.
有什么电话号码或者照片是
我们该留意的嘛?
Do you have any numbers or photos
we should be concerned about?
我们会每天检查而且
随即打其中的号码
We'll check it daily and call
any number at random,
你最好跟我们
坦白
so you best be straight
with us on that.
我没什么可交代的 还有 对了
电话你要打的话随便打
There's nothing. And, yeah, call
whatever numbers if you need to.
CAMERON: "清醒要求。禁止
吸烟，喝酒，毒品
CAMERON: "Sobriety. No
smoking, no alcohol or drugs."
CARL: "休息时间 在指定的
安全区内活动"
CARL: "Off hours. All clients to remain
within a safe zone area as designated."
"服装要求 女生
裙子必须过膝
"Attire. Women's skirts
must extend below the knee
"随时都要
穿胸罩"
"and bras are to be worn
at all times."
MICHAEL: 那是啥?
MICHAEL: What's that?
oh 这是 额...
(结巴) 我写的故事
on, it's, um...
(STAMMERS) I write stories.
我是大学生...
I'm studying in a college...
不许记日记 我们会
看看内容
No journaling. We're gonna
have to read that.
"保密要求
"Confidentiality.
"治疗过程中
一切事项保密"
"All matters discussed in
therapy are to remain private."
"卫生间要求
"Restrooms.
"上厕所要有
员工陪同"
"Members must be supervised by
staff during restroom visits."
MICHAEL: 你的手册
JARED: Oh, yeah
MICHAEL: Your handbook.
JARED: Oh, yeah.
MICHAEL: 祝你好运
MICHAEL: Good luck.
谢了
Thank you.
"禁止观赏任何色情内容
禁止自慰
"No viewing of pornographic
material, no masturbation,
"禁止任何时候和
任何成员有身体接触
"no physical contact
with any member at any time,
"但是可以
握手"
"apart from the briefest
ofhandshakesf
(远处男的谈论声)
(MEN TALKING INDISTINCTLY)
(对讲机)
Michael 呼叫 Aaron
(ON WALKIE-TALKIE)
Michael for Aaron,
今天预计
多少顾客?
how many clients
are we expecting today?
收到 Michael.
请等一下
Copy, Michael.
Hold, please.
等等 Jared
Uh, just one second, Jared.
预计今天11人
We should have 11 today.
MICHAEL: 好吧，大厅又
来人了
MICHAEL: Well, we have more
in the lobby.
AARON:没事 我们
还有五分钟
AARON: It's okay. We should
get another five minutes.
MICHAEL: Copy.
Jared,去找个位置
坐会儿吧
Jared, if you just want to go
find yourself a seat
然后放松放松
马上就开始
and then make yourself comfortable.
We'll get started soon.
(男孩哭泣声)
(BOY SOBBING)
Hi. Hi.
早
Morning.
Hi.
JARED: "罪恶的 淫秽的
还有无关的
JARED: "Sinful, salacious,
and extraneous materials.
"所有读物
电影 电视
"All reading material
and films and television
"都超出
体制允许的范围"
"are off limits
while inside the program."
(叹)
(SIGHS)
VICTOR: 我用性罪
和同性恋
VICTOR: l am using sexual
sin and homosexuality
去填补生命中上帝
形象的空缺
to fill a God-shaped void
in my life.
所有人:我用性罪
和同性恋
ALL: l am using sexual sin
and homosexuality
去填补生命中上帝
形象的空缺
to fill a God-shaped void
in my life.
VICTOR: 但我不是残缺的
上帝是爱我的
VICTOR: But I am not broken,
and God loves me.
所有人: 但我不是残缺的
上帝是爱我的
ALL: But I am not broken,
and God loves me.
VICTOR: 很好
所言极是
VICTOR: Good.
That is very true.
告诉我
这是什么
Now somebody tell me
what this is.
成员：一美元
AUDIENCE MEMBER; A dollar.
VICTOR：一美元.
Victor:a dollar
听好 不论你把它
弄得多么皱
Now, no matter how much
you crumple up a dollar bill,
一美元
还是一美元
you can never
take away its value.
就算
它被撕坏了
Now even if
you were to rip it,
就像我们
与基督分离
which would represent
our being severed from Christ,
那又怎样?
well, guess what?
你永远可以
粘好它
You can always
tape it back together.
耶稣重塑我们
Jesus puts us back together.
尽管有了疤痕
我们的价值不会变
And even though there is a
scar, our value does not change.
你依旧是你
You are somebody.
Sorry.
你有你的价值
没事 Jon 请坐
You are worth something.
That's okay, Jon. Sit down.
事实就是如此
省着点花 Phillip.
And that is a fact. Don't
spend it all at once, Phillip.
(笑声)
(LAUGHTER)
各位 这可能是你们一生里
最艰难却又
Now, this may be the toughest,
but most rewarding
最值得的
12天
12 days that many of you
will ever face.
我们只有一项任务
But we have just one task,
让我们自己
重归上帝
to bring ourselves
back to God.
让上帝重归我们
To invite him back in.
醒悟到当初
上帝创造的
To understand how he
truly meant to create us
完好无损的
我们的模样
before all those pieces
got torn away.
听着，我知道对很多人来说
路漫漫其修远
Now, look, I know the road here
wasn't easy for many of you.
但是我保证到了这儿
你能坐上我的顺风车
But I promise a smoother ride
now that you're here.
我们将共同开启
一段奇妙的旅程
Because we are about to go on
an amazing journey together.
所以 谁准备好了？
So, who's ready?
我问你们呢
谁准备好了? 说阿门!
That was a question.
Who's ready? Say amen!
所有：阿门
ALL: Amen.
阿门！如果你值那
一美元, 说阿门!
Amen! If you know you're
worth a dollar, say amen!
所有：阿门
ALL: Amen!
(轻笑)
(LIGHT LAUGHTER)
VICTOR: 欢迎来到
庇护计划! 好嘛!
VICTOR: Welcome to the
Refuge program! Come on!
真好 卓越的灵魂!
好!
That's right, great souls!
Great!
VICTOR: 现在 我
一句话
VICTOR: Now, I'm gonna
tell you something
就能让你
感到些许宽慰
that's gonna make you
immediately feel a little better.
人们说你生来
就能是同性恋 错
People tell you you can be
born gay, that's not true.
你不可能生来就
是同性恋 你们被骗了
You cannot be born a
homosexual, this is a lie.
我现在是一个顾问还是个
牧师 我生来就是吗?
Now, I'm a counselor and a
pastor, but was I born that way?
(笑)No
(CHUCKLING)
行为使然
选择使然
It's behavioral.
It's a choice.
Cameron 你
你 uh 踢足球？对吗？
Cameron, you,
you, uh, play football? Yeah?
是
刚出生就踢？
Yeah.
Were you born that way?
No.
对嘛 成为足球运动员
你的选择 对吗？
Now, you chose to be
a football player, right?
是行为
It's behavior.
如果你...如果Cameron
不踢了
Now, if you... If Cameron
stops playing football,
他就不是
球员了
he no longer
is a football player.
我们先要定位
行为的根源
We gotta learn for ourselves
where behavior comes from
于是就能戒掉
so we can cut it out
于是我们就撕下了
那样的标签
and then we can no longer
be labeled that way.
谁能告诉我
基因表是什么?
Now, who can tell us
what a genogram is?
Phillip.
基因表类似于
家庭成员树状图...
Well, a genogram is like
a family tree... Mmm.
...只不过更能够体现出
成员的行为
...only one that shows patterns
of family behavior as well.
相比较
更详细
Sort of like
an illustrated one.
是的 看 我们
要画我们的家树
Yes. Now, we are
going to draw our family tree
而且在每个成员旁边
列上他们的罪恶行为
and we're gonna list next to
these people their behavioral sin.
所他们影响了我们
So, they made us
给我们添上了标签
该我们给他们贴了
and they labeled us,
so we're gonna label them.
Michael, 读一下
有哪些罪恶行为?
Michael, can you read
the behavioral sins?
我们用SSA或H
We use the letters SSA or H
代表同性之间的吸引
即同性恋
to label same sex attraction
or homosexuality,
D代表毒品
D for drugs,
美元符号代表赌博
a dollar sign for gambling,
A, 酗酒
A, alcoholism,
P, 淫乱
P, promiscuity,
M, 精神疾病
M, mental illness,
大写A小写b
代表堕胎
capital A, lowercase B
for abortion,
大写P小写o
代表色情作品
capital P, lowercase O
for pornography,
还有C或者G
罪犯或勾结帮派
and C or G,
criminal or gang affiliation.
VICTOR: 你忘了DV
家暴
VICTOR: You're forgetting DV,
domestic violence.
MICHAEL: 大写D 小写
v 家暴.
MICHAEL: Capital D, lowercase
V, domestic violence.
VICTOR: 好嘞
开始吧 大家
VICTOR: Okay.
Guys, let's dive right in.
拿起卡片
还有笔
Let's grab some cards
and some markers.
我想让你们列出成员
I want you to write them down
把这些简写标在
他们名字旁边
and put the letters
next to their names.
我知道他们是家里人
I know they're family,
但我保证
是其中某个 或某些人
but I can guarantee that
one or some of these people
导致了
你来到“爱行”
are the reason
that you're at Love in Action.
Jared 你应该就是
传教士的孩子吧
So, Jared, you must be
the preacher's son.
你要么知道要么不知道
You know or you don't know.
打个问号干嘛？
What's the question mark for?
Chris叔叔是个酒鬼
Uncle Chris is an alcoholic.
Hmm.
这出事肯定搅得
你全家不安吧？
Well, this must be pretty
tough on your family, huh?
MARSHALL: 请诸君
以我的德律洗耳
MARSHALL: Give ear,
O my people, to my law.
恭听此番
口出箴言
Incline your ears
to the words of my mouth.
一则寓言清嗓
I will open my mouth
in a parable.
暗语吐到地上
I will utter dark sayings
which we have heard.
不对
No.
JARED: 文采斐然
JARED: Sounds good, Dad.
准备好了吗?
我们得走了
Are you ready?
We gotta get going.
为什么
明天要去达拉斯?
Why are we
going to Dallas tomorrow?
装修计划 uh
更新了
Architect's updated the, uh,
remodel plans for the ministry.
我们要去那看看
两座相似的教堂
Now we're gonna take a tour of
two similar churches right there.
不如这样 我呆在Chloe那儿
你自己去 如何?
Do you think I could stay at
Chloe's when you go instead?
没关系，
我可以待在Wayne那儿
It's okay,
I can stay at Wayne's.
或 或者 我就...
我同意
Or... Or, I'll just...
I'm okay with that.
事实上 我觉得
那样再好不过
In fact, I think
it is a great idea.
你们俩都很成熟
都举止得当
You're both mature kids who
know how to conduct themselves
而且已经有健全的
世界观了
and who by now know
how the world works.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
要知道 儿子 逐步走向成年
才是正确的方式
You know, son, small steps toward manhood.
That's the way to learn.
陡然成年的话
你会手足无措
That way you don't get all
panicky when it suddenly arrives.
你懂
我意思吧 罗密欧?
You do know
what I'm saying, Romeo?
Okay.
Yes, sir.
走吧，我们要迟到了
Let's go, we're late.
BIG JIM: 感谢上苍
今天如此美好
BIG JIM: Dear Heavenly Father, we
thank you for this beautiful day
主啊 我们祈祷
你能在我们脚踏实地时
and, Lord, we pray that
you look over our shoulder
照看着我们
as we march out onto the floor
而且我们能够给顾客
如你般的爱与善
and that we show our customers the
love and kindness that you show us.
以基督之名
乘基督之幸...
In Jesus Christ's name
and for his sake...
早!
点亮自己!
Morning!
Let your light shine!
阿门
Amen.
ALL: Amen.
EMPLOYEE: 好嘞
工作顺利
EMPLOYEE: All right.
MARSHALL: Have a great day.
(口哨)
(WHISTLE BLOWING)
(欢呼)
(CHEERING)
教练: 我数到三
One, two, three...
COACH: Rebels on three.
One, two, three...
ALL: Rebels!
做得好
You did so good.
怎么说? 助攻 比赛中最被
低估的部分之一
Right, buddy? Assists, one of the most
underrated components of the game.
恭喜. NANCY: 我敢说
所有得分都有你的功劳
Congratulations. NANCY: I saw
you setting up all the points.
MARSHALL: 瞧着胜利的汗水
爸，我才...
MARSHALL: Oh, that's victory sweat.
Dad, I'm...
Yeah!
我上场才 大概 五分钟吧
Yeah!
I played, like, five minutes.
Hey. MARSHALL: 我觉得
不只那么久
Hey. MARSHALL: I think
you played more than that.
你呢? 又是
比赛里被低估的存在
How about you? Another
underrated component of the game.
CHLOE: Thank you.开心吗?
恭喜 美女
CHLOE: Thank you. How are you?
Congratulations, beautiful girl.
我好担心你的 我还以为
他们不要你了
I was worried about you. I thought
they were going to drop you.
CHLOE: 不会的
别担心
CHLOE: Oh, no,
don't worry.
你们要
去庆祝?
You kids going
to go celebrate?
对 是有些要去
我们要去湖那儿
Yeah, some of us, I think
we're gonna go to the lake.
湖那儿 真好
All right. The lake.
好吧 车行要给我
搞辆越野, 这辆归你了
All right. Dealership's going to put
me in an Expedition, so it's yours.
JARED: Wow.
老爸！（笑）
Dad! (CHUCKLES)
All right.
本来是要
生日再送你
It's gonna be
for your birthday,
但今晚正好
乘胜送车
but tonight's a good night,
so congratulations.
太好了 谢谢您嘞
MARSHALL: 玩的开心啊
Thank you so much. Thank you.
MARSHALL: Go and have fun.
我看看你妈
愿不愿意去湖那儿
I want to see if your mama
wants to go to the lake.
(CHLOE JARED窃喜 )
(CHLOE AND JARED CHUCKLE)
(大笑)
(LAUGHTER)
(尖叫)
(EXCITED SQUEALS)
CHLOE: 他们还没睡呢
CHLOE: They're still up.
怎么了?
What?
(叹)
(SIGHS)
如果硬不起来
我能帮你
If it's not hard,
I can make it hard.
你不觉得我们该
等到 内个...
Don't you think we should
wait until, you know...
等到...
Until...
你懂的...
啥时候? 到我们结婚?
You know...
Until what? We get married?
(笑)
(CHUCKLES)
那是我父母
的观念
That's what my parents think
we should do.
为了保持我们的关系
直到大学毕业
To keep us together
through college.
Hey-
有什么不对劲的吗?
ls something wrong?
No.
AARON: Jared.
准备收工吗？今天差不多
就到这里 画的不错
Ready to pack it up? We're about
done for the day. Looks nice.
五点了 各位!
该回家喽
5:00, everyone!
It's home time.
AARON: 五点了 回去吧
GIRL: Bye.
AARON: 5:00, let's go!
MICHAEL: 行了 大家
收拾好
MICHAEL: All right, everybody,
pack it up.
名牌
Name tag.
JARED: 谢了
MICHAEL:明早九点见
JARED: Thanks.
MICHAEL: 9:00 a.m. tomorrow.
Uh...
Hey, (结巴)
你撕了几页
Hey, (STAMMERS)
you tore out the pages.
Mmm.
只是故事而已
Mmm.
They're just stories.
Sykes先生说是才是
Mr. Sykes will decide that.
Aaron呼叫Michael.
AARON". For Michael.
说吧
Go for Michael.
你还在办公室吗
AARON".
Are you still in the office?
(吐气)
(EXHALES)
你是当兵的? 你
在军队里还是咋的?
Are you... Are you a soldier? Were
you in the military or something?
我见你之前敬礼来着
(笑) 不是
I saw you salute earlier.
(CHUCKLES) No.
我试着尽量避免任何接触
I'm trying zero contact whatsoever.
Mmm.
呆这儿23天了
Twenty-three days now.
所以，我改敬礼了
So, I salute instead.
大家都挺好的
This group seems good.
你之前来过?
Have you been here before?
对 这是第二次
加入庇护计划
Yeah, it's my second time
in the Refuge program.
上次加入的晚落下了
几天
I started a couple days late
last time.
实际上，我在等
有房子空出来
And actually, I'm waiting for a
place to open in one of the houses.
什么房子?
就房子嘛
What houses?
The houses.
他们为长期呆在这的人
准备了房子 就在后面
They have a few houses behind the
property for the long stayers.
不过现在, 我被
困在Baybrook和我爸一起
Meanwhile, I'm stuck
at the Baybrook with my dad,
可真有意思
which is interesting.
你也在
酒店住？是
Are you in one of the
local hotels, too? Yeah.
所以 你得呆
在这多久?
So, like, how long
will you stay for?
不是我能决定的
Sykes先生决定
It's not really up to me.
Mr. Sykes decides.
没人和你说清楚吗?
No one explained that to you?
No, no.
现在是评测阶段
直到他们确定对策
This is just an assessment program,
until they know what to do with you.
听着
投入就行 兄弟
Hey, listen.
Just lean into it, man.
Yeah.
要干啥就干啥
信我 老兄
Do the work
and trust me, man,
你会爱上这个地方
you're gonna love it here.
NANCY: 不想和我
分享今天的经历?
NANCY: Aren't you gonna
tell me about your day?
我们不能和
组外的人谈论
We're not meant to talk
about it outside of group.
我不是八卦 我只是
想了解你大体感受
I don't need gossip, I just...
I just mean generally.
我要投入其中
I'm gonna lean into it
而且那儿
人都还不错
and there are
some good people.
而且 嗯 我喜欢那儿
And, yeah, I like it.
(笑) 我还挺激动的
那就好
(CHUCKLES) I'm excited to be here.
That's good!
我们家族里有人
存在这里提到的问题吗?
Do we have people in the family who
had issues with any of this stuff?
(清嗓)
(CLEARS THROAT)
色情作品?
妈耶...
Pornography?
Mom...
毒品? 勾结帮派
Drugs? Gang affiliation.
帮派?
这啥啊?
Gang affiliations?
What is this?
作业要求
I need to know for homework.
他们为啥要了解
家境？
Why do they need to know
about the family?
我们家庭很正常啊
Our family is so normal.
明天很重要吧,嗯?
Big day tomorrow, hmm?
赶紧好好睡一觉
You get some good sleep, now.
对了 你的作业
我填好了
Oh, um, I filled out
your homework for you.
我在帮派里只呆了一年
左右然后贩毒被抓
I was only in a gang for a year
or so until I went down for drugs.
进了号子
Got sent to prison.
Haha!
(NANCY笑了)
(NANCY CHUCKLES)
你文森特叔叔
我填上了
I put your Uncle Vincent
down there.
你没见过他是因为你小时候
他就搬到Louisiana州了 所以...
You've never met him because he moved
to Louisiana when you were little, so...
我们就未见过他
We just never see him.
我们总认为他...
We always figured that he...
(清了清喉咙)
(CLEARS THROAT)
他很女性化
可以这么说
He was very feminine-like,
you might say.
好 我也累了
All right. Oh, I'm tired.
晚安
好梦
Night night.
Good night.
VICTOR: 什么叫做真男人?
VICTOR: What is a real man?
真男人
长什么样?
What does
a real man look like?
有人知道吗?
Does anybody know?
小子们 别跷二郎腿
注意仪表
Guys, uncross your legs.
Posture, come on.
也许 也许靠近
地狱熊熊烈火
Now, perhaps being close
to the flames of hell
却迷途知返
体现强大的毅力
and finding your way back
shows a great strength.
如果是那样的话
And if that were so, then,
我可以肯定
这位是真正的男人
if this isn't a real man,
then I don't know what is.
这位是Brandon Ellis
大家问声好啊
This is Brandon Ellis, guys.
I want you to say hello.
BRANDON: 谢谢 Sykes
VICTOR: 欢迎他
BRANDON: Thanks, Sykes.
VICTOR: Make him welcome.
交给你了 Brandon.
Over to you, Brandon.
BRANDON:
上帝保佑 上帝保佑
BRANDON:
God bless, God bless.
要我说 一个真正的男人
首先要信仰上帝
A real man to me is a man
of God first and foremost
我信仰上帝
毫无疑问
and I'm a man of God,
no doubt.
我想那我算是一个真男人
I guess that counts me in.
但我曾经不是
But I wasn't once.
如果我被列到
我儿子的基因图里
If I was ever listed
on my own son's genograms,
我名字旁写满的
那些字母能组成
there'd be so many of these letters
next to my name it would look like
一所名校的规章制度
(VICTOR 笑了)
qualifications for some fancy university.
(VICTOR CHUCKLES)
毒品 暴力
帮派 服过刑
Drugs, violence,
gang crime, prison time,
但我认为
我有资格站在这
but I actually believe
I'm qualified to be here.
不是因为我也曾迷失在
类似你们如今纠缠不清的
Not because I've ever had the
types of thoughts and feelings
或那些你们另一位导师
that y'all are wrestling with,
已经正确克服的
想法和感受中
or that your other guidance
counselors have overcome righteously.
种种考验把我
牵离圣主的光环太远
But I've had all sorts of my own trials
that took me so far away from the Lord
我能站在这里
可以说是奇迹
that it's a true miracle that I'm
standing here before you today.
但我在这 我在
But I am. I am.
立正 前倾 端坐
BRANDON:
Standing, leaning, sitting.
统一标准
All the same idea.
三角是
最坚固的形状
Triangles are
the strongest shape.
记住 手放在屁股上 快!
Remember, hands on hips. Go!
拯救自己
Save yourself.
手指向前 不是向后
就该这样
Fingers forward, not back.
Just the way it is.
思考你现在的姿势
然后问自己
Think of the shapes you're
making and ask yourself,
"这是个男人的姿势
还是个女孩或女性的姿势?"
"Is this a manly shape I'm making
or is it a girly or feminine shape?"
Sarah 来 过来
Sarah, come on up here.
来嘛
你这朵娇花
Come on,
you delicate flower, you.
好
Okay.
我想让你
按照男子气概程度
I want you to arrange
these guys into a line
将他们排序
好吗
in terms of masculinity,
if you will.
去啊 你可以的
Go on, you can do it.
根据你的直觉来
Follow your instincts.
我本人以及其他瘾君子和
酒鬼坚信“AA”
Myself and other addicts and
alcoholics put our faith in AA.
熟记这个短语
"虚伪直到成为"
Get familiar with this phrase,
"Fake it till you make it."
你们现在
纠结着你们的纠结
Y'all folks and kids being
what you're afflicted with,
但你们得学会
生存之道
you gotta learn
how to survive.
你要进了监狱
When you're in prison,
你会惊讶于
为了合群你会做出什么来
you'd surprise yourself
what you can do to fit in.
加油 Phillip.
眼盯着球
Come on, Phillip.
Eye on the ball.
加油！ 好吧 下一个
Come on! Okay, next.
虚伪直到成为
你不是那样也能成为那样
Fake it till you make it.
Become the man you are not.
看来 你觉得Cameron是
这群人的领头羊 哈?
So, you think Cameron here
is the big winner, huh?
你认为又高又壮
You think being big and tall
暴饮暴食能
体现男子气概
and overeating immediately puts
a guy at the front of the line.
然而不只是三角姿势
体态 或 基因那么简单
But it's more than triangles
and postures and genetics.
握手用点力...
赶紧! 击球!
A firm handshake...
Let's go! Do it!
举起球棒
Gotta pick up the bat.
球棒举起来！
Hold the bat up!
(呻吟)
(GROANS)
跌倒了就爬起来!
Get back up on that horse!
行了 快把他
弄走
All right, just get him
out of there.
Lee 你不会有事的
Lee, you're gonna be okay.
Jared 到你了
Jared, you're up next.
不错
Good.
军队的
上帝保佑 孩子
Military man.
God bless, son.
你的内在可以
受外在影响.
Who you are on the inside can
be affected by the outside.
接受外在影响 虚伪直到
成为 适者生存
Outside in, fake it till you
make it, adapt to survive.
瞧，这才是击球站姿
都看见没
See, that's a batting stance.
That's what I'm talking about.
Boom!
VICTOR: 女同 男同 双性恋
跨性别 都是啥啊
VICTOR: Lesbian, gay, bisexual,
transsexual, whatever that is,
多性恋 智性恋
我说 你还想要啥?
multisexual, intellectual-sexual,
I mean, what else do you want?
独角兽？松鼠？纸杯蛋糕？
难不成 彩虹? (大笑)
Unicorns? Squirrels? Cupcakes?
I mean, rainbows? (LAUGHTER)
这个群体
有太多选择
There's so much choice
in this group.
但是 仔细想想 这些选择
会有什么结果?
But, hey, think about this. What are
the consequences to those choices?
瞧瞧这儿
强暴 艾滋
Have a look at this.
Rape, abuse, AIDS.
你们犯下
多少罪啊?
What sinful things
have y'all done?
道德修整
Moral inventory.
列举你的罪恶
请求上帝谅解
Catalogue your sins
and ask God's forgiveness.
准备好了吗?
Who's ready?
Sarah!
SARAH: "健身之前在更衣室
我会偷看别的女生
SARAH: "I would look at other girls
in the changing rooms before gym
"洗澡时也会
"and in the showers.
"不幸中的万幸
我犯过最大的错
"My biggest sin is one
that I am also thankful for
使我来到了
爱行这个地方"
"because it has led me
to Love in Action."
VICTOR: 很好 Sarah
继续
VICTOR: Doing well, Sarah.
Carry on.
"我从我叔叔那
逃出来到了
"I had run away
from my uncle's house
"一个女孩的家呆着
我知道她父母不在家
"and stayed with some girls I
knew whose parents were away.
"是在那我最终
实施了我的同性恋想法"
"It was there that I finally
acted on my homosexual thoughts."
VICTOR: 你可以的 Sarah
VICTOR: Come on, Sarah.
"我让她摸我的...
SARAH:
"I let a girl touch my...
"亲我的...
"Kiss my...
(结巴) "我的阴部"
(STAMMERS) "My vagina."
没人会评判你 说吧
VICTOR:
Nobody's judging, come on.
SARAH: "让她把手指伸到我体内
我对她也做了同样的事
SARAH: "And put her fingers
inside me and I did the same.
"我从此摒弃这些
罪恶的思想和行为
"I renounce these
sinful thoughts and actions
“也在此请求上帝
对我的原谅"
"and ask God to forgive me
all these things."
很好
Very good.
我们爱你 Sarah
We love you, Sarah.
跟我一起说
我们爱你, Sarah.
Repeat after me.
We love you, Sarah.
所有： 我们爱你 Sarah.
VICTOR: 很好
ALL: We love you, Sarah.
VICTOR: Very good.
要喝点水吗?
不用了 谢谢
Do you want some water?
I'm fine, thanks.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
你要其他什么嘛?
我... 我没事 谢了
Can I get you anything else?
I'm... I'm fine, thank you.
LEE的父亲: 你怎么能
那样羞辱一个孩子!
LEE'S FATHER: How dare you
humiliate a child like that!
你们就干这行？
你们很喜欢?
Is that what you guys do?
You like that?
喜欢那样? 你们就喜欢
羞辱和虐待儿童?
You like doing that? You like
humiliating and abusing children?
VICTOR: 过程是不那么轻松 啥叫
不那么轻松?
VICTOR: It's not easy. What
do you mean it's not easy?
Lee他父母
他父母来了.
BOY: Lee's parents.
GIRL: His parents are here.
LEE他爸:
你知道自己在说啥吗
LEE'S FATHER:
Listen to yourself.
VICTOR: 不是冒犯您 我们这儿
不是开夏令营的
VICTOR: With respect, we are
not running a holiday camp here.
我们付了3000
我该举报你
We paid you $3,000.
I should report you.
他要得了脑震荡咋办
LEE他妈: David 咱走吧.
You could have given him a concussion.
LEE'S MOTHER: David, let's go.
VICTOR: 我说过
过程不那么容易
VICTOR: But this
change doesn't come easy.
得了吧!
Unbelievable!
你们觉得你们
是来玩的?
Do you all find the reason
y'all are here is funny?
照照镜子
Look at y'all!
大家都是人!
People!
我在帮助你们
I'm trying to help you.
所有请别浪费我时间
So, do not waste my time.
这儿的治疗过程
不允许外传，出了门就不能说
Nobody is to discuss the
therapy outside these walls.
听清楚了没?
Do I make myself clear?
道德修整：Henry
HENRY: 来
我来帮你
HENRY: Here.
l got you,pal
不好意思
没事我来
Oh, sorry, sorry.
I got that.
多谢了
Thank you so much.
哪
哪间宿舍?
Which, uh...
Which room you in?
我在 317
I'm in, uh, 317.
我在237 你跑步吗?
I'm in 237. You run?
是啊
我就说嘛
Yeah.
I figure.
跑步的人才懂亚瑟士鞋 对吧
对啊
People who run know about Asics, right?
Oh, yeah.
这儿 到了
Here. This is me.
(JARED喘气)
(JARED EXHALES)
先来的先选
First one in gets to choose.
(HENRY咕哝)
(HENRY GRUNTS)
女朋友?
You got a girl?
有的话 你可能得想想
申请一个单人间
If so, you might want to think about
applying for a room without bunks.
刚分手
Just broke up.
Oh.
准时地为大学
腾出了机会
That's perfect timing
for college.
HENRY: 我们很合拍
HENRY: We're a good fit.
我讨厌和慢吞吞的人一起跑
Hate running with slowpokes.
要不这样
咱俩赛一下
I tell you what,
I race you on the way back.
落后的必须得
去另一个人的教堂
Last one back has to go
to the other one's church.
为啥?
什么教堂这么玄乎?
Why?
What kind of church is it?
来不来嘛?
You game or not?
来就来
Okay.
Two, three, go!
One, two, three, go!
Two, three, go!
(歌唱)
(SINGING)
(口哨和尖叫)
(WHISTLING AND CHEERING)
你好 兄弟
Jared.
Hey, man. Nice to meet you.
(喘气)
(BOTH PANTING)
(游戏里的
悬疑音乐)
(SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC PLAYING
ON VIDEO GAME)
你室友今晚
不回来?
You say your roommate's
not back till tomorrow?
他去了啥高尔夫游
He's on some golf trip.
你想在这过夜?
Do you want to crash?
Uh, 也许吧
Uh, maybe.
晚安
Good night.
晚安
Good night.
(关机)
(TV TURNS OFF)
(脱鞋声)
(拉链声)
(SHOES THUDDING)
(ZIPPER UNZIPS)
(床铺响声)
(BUNK CREAKING)
JARED: 睡不着 哈?
JARED: Can't sleep, huh?
(床铺)
(BUNK CREAKING)
(JARED叹气)
(JARED SIGHS SOFTLY)
JARED: 不该跑到
这么晚
JARED: Probably shouldn't run
so late at night.
(床铺)
(BUNK CREAKING)
咋了?
You Okay?
没事
Yeah.
只是...
Yeah, just...
没事的
It's okay.
没关系
It's okay.
(JARED沉重地呼吸)
(JARED BREATHING HEAVILY)
Hey 没关系 没事的
Hey, it's okay. It's okay.
等下 别
Wait, wait.
(嘘)
(HENRY SHUSHING)
(结巴别 别
(STUTTERS)No.
(嘘)
(SHUSHING)
(低吼)
(HENRY GRUNTS)
JARED: 停 停 停
停 下 来！
JARED: Stop, stop, stop,
stop, stop, stop!
（咕哝）
(BOTH GRUNTING)
(蒙住尖叫声)
(MUFFLED SCREAM)
Ow!
(MUFFLED SCREAMS)
MAN: (砸门) 行了
小声点好吗
MAN: (THUMPING ON DOOR) Come
on, keep it down in there.
(JARED喘息)
(HENRY呻吟)
(JARED PANTING)
(HENRY GROANS)
(PANTING)
(啜泣)
(SNIFFLES)
HENRY: (声断)我怎么
这幅鬼样子?
HENRY: (VOICE BREAKING) What
the hell is wrong with me?
对不起
I'm so sorry.
完了 我迟早
要完蛋
I'm going to be
in so much trouble.
(深呼一口气)
(EXHALES SHARPLY)
我得忏悔
I need to confess.
我要忏悔
你可以听我忏悔吗?
I need to confess.
Will you hear me?
求你了
Please.
Uh-huh.
你记得教堂里那个
男孩吗?
Do you remember the kid
from church?
我们前面那个
The one in front of us.
我和他
有段缘份
Something happened
with me and him.
孽缘
Something pretty bad.
你不敢告诉
别人吧 你不会吧
You wouldn't dare
tell anyone, would you?
求你
Please.
保密今晚
Keep it between us.
(哭泣)
(SOBBING)
教授：
请打开书本第6章
PROFESSOR:
Start with Chapter 6, please.
(笑)
回来也不说一声
(CHUCKLES)
What a surprise.
Oh!
(电话)
(PHONE RINGING)
Hello. HENRY:是Nancy Eamons
女士吗?
Hello. HENRY: Is this Mrs.
Nancy Eamons?
正是
This is she.
我是Danning大学
一位咨询师
I'm a counselor
at Danning College.
恐怕要跟你聊聊
你儿子在学校的不良行为
I'm afraid I have some disturbing news
about your son's behavior at school.
啥?
What?
他咋了?
What about him?
他说他的名字了? MARSHALL:
你先回答问题
Did he give you a name? MARSHALL:
I need you to answer my question.
如果他实名...
请 你 回答
If he gave you a name...
Please, Jared, just answer.
但我想说
为什么他不...
I'm just saying.
Why wouldn't he...
你有做他指控
的事情吗?
Have you been doing
the things he said?
他为什么不敢实名?
行了 儿子 别说了
Why wouldn't he give you a name?
Come on, son, enough.
说实话
Tell me the truth.
我也在提问
他没留名 我不记...
I'm asking questions, too. He
didn't give me a name. I don't...
那家伙在放屁
JARED:
The guy's full of shit.
他就是个骗子
你不能那样说话
He's telling a bunch of lies.
Now, you will not talk like that
在这间屋子里
在你妈面前
in this house
in front of your mother.
注意言行
You just watch your mouth.
Nancy 让...让我们俩
单独谈谈 好吗
Nancy, if... If you could just
give us a moment, you know,
先去...
我... 我不想待这儿...
just to...
I'm... I'm leaving...
坐下
不准走
Sit down.
You will not leave the room.
坐下 孩子
You will sit down, boy.
坐下 那些全是放屁 爸
放屁
You will sit down. It's bullshit, Dad.
It's bullshit.
我刚说什么来着
还出口成脏
I just asked you
to watch your mouth.
(NANCY清了清嗓)
(NANCY CLEARS THROAT)
我记得
他说他是个咨询师
I think, um,
he said he was a counselor,
然后...
然后我问他名字
and then...
And I asked for his name
然后要他的...
Nancy.
and then I asked for...
Nancy.
还没明白吗?
他的电话 他也不...
You see?
His number and he didn't...
Nancy 行了
Nancy, please.
爸 我...
Dad, I...
他全是编的
He's made all of this up.
咱们就坐在这
Let's just sit here.
就好好谈一谈
NANCY: 好吧 好吧
We're just going to talk calmly.
NANCY: All right. All right.
JARED: 不 爸
(叹) Jared.
JARED: No, Dad.
(EXHALES) Jared.
你只要告诉我
真相 我想知道
I just need you to tell me
the truth, that's all.
他所说的
关于你的 Jared
What this man says
of you, Jared.
你是同性恋吗?
Are you a homosexual?
Jared.
我们还有话要说
We are not finished.
我无话可说 你根本听不进去
儿子 宝贝
I am because you won't listen.
Honey. Honey.
他说的 到底是真的吗
什么玩意 那个放屁的家伙...
What this man says, is it true?
What, this full-of-shit guy...
回答我
...根本不是咨询师,
Answer me.
...who is not a counselor,
他性侵他教堂
里的孩子
who raped a kid
at his own church
天知道还有别的谁
and God knows who else.
爸 松手
Dad, you're hurting me.
他叫Henry Wallace.
Marshall.
His name is Henry Wallace.
他不是什么咨询师
他是个学生
He's... He's not a counselor,
he's a student.
好吧
而且...而且...
All right.
And... And...
他跟我坦白
他干过的坏事
He told me
he did some bad things.
他这是
贼喊捉贼
I think he thinks
I'm going to tell on him.
Honey.
儿子
Son.
(NANCY 深呼吸)
(NANCY BREATHING HEAVILY)
(关门)
(DOOR CLOSES)
开打!
MALE VOICE: Fight!
开战!
Go to war!
你妈在做晚饭
Your mother's making dinner.
我还行 我还不饿
I'm okay. I'm not hungry.
你得写下这个
男人的名字
I want you to write down
this man's name,
他的教堂 电话号码知道的话也写上
任何信息
his church, phone number if you have it.
Any information at all.
我不希望你和他交谈
我也不去和他谈
I don't want you to talk to him.
I ain't going to talk to him.
如果他如你所说
他得被举报
If he's been doing what you say,
then he needs to be reported.
Okay.
你猜怎么着? 我邀请了
Chloe和他父母明天共进午餐
Now, you know what I did? I invited
Chloe and her parents for lunch tomorrow.
你也来嘛
会很有趣的
I was thinking it would be fun
if you could join in.
多逃一天课又
不是世界模式
Missing one more day of class
ain't gonna end the world.
儿子啊
(叹)
You know, Jared...
(SIGHS)
...依我之见
...as far as I can tell,
我们只有
一项天赋的神权
we've only got
one God-given right.
那就是当一个男人
和一个女人在一起
And that is when a man
and a woman come together.
他们可以创造生命
They may create life.
你想想上帝
得多爱我们
You think how much
God must love mankind
才会赋予我们一项
神圣的权利 老爸嘞
to give us that awesome
responsibility. Dad.
所言极不是
It's really not true.
你也知道我对这些
游戏的看法
You know what I think about
these type of games, too.
你妈一会叫你
放尊敬点
Be respectful to your mother
when she calls.
乖乖下楼吃饭
You come down and eat.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
(撞击声)
(CLATTERS)
NANCY: 宝宝
NANCY: Honey.
好的 你想让我
停止玩这游戏?
All right. You want me
to stop with the games?
我不玩了
I'll stop with them.
我和Chloe分手了
I broke up with Chloe
因为...
because
(叹)
(SIGHS)
我们分手了
因为我觉得是真的
We broke up
because I think it's true
关于我的
about me.
我的天
God help me.
我对男的有想法
I think about men.
(颤抖)
(SHUDDERS)
我不知为何
I don't know why.
我很抱歉
I'm so sorry.
(汽车靠近)
(VEHICLE APPROACHING)
(引擎停止)
(ENGINE STOPS)
(远处男的谈论声)
(MEN TALKING INDISTINCTLY)
(门铃)
(DOORBELL RINGING)
MARSHALL:
上帝保佑 牧师你好
MARSHALL:
God bless you, pastor.
(模糊话语)
(SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)
BIG JIM: 你还好吗?
MARSHALL: 不是最好的状态
BIG JIM: Are you okay?
MARSHALL: I've had better days,
只能这么说
I can tell you that.
(敲门)
(KNOCKING ON DOOR)
等下 等一下
JARED: Mom?
Just a minute. Just a minute.
JARED: Mom?
等一下 (强颜欢笑)
好了
Hold on. (CHUCKLES)
All right.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
Wilkes牧师
和Jim Picard怎么来了?
Why are Pastor Wilkes
and Jim Picard here?
Wilkes牧师曾处理过
类似的事情
Pastor Wilkes has dealt with
this kind of thing before.
Jim有个儿子 叫Eddie
他 内个...
Jim has a son, Eddie,
who, um...
你那时还小
但...
You were a little boy,
but...
总之——
Anyway-
他们对他做了什么?
你想错了
What did they do to him?
Oh, no.
别傻了
You silly thing.
他们没“对”他
做任何事
They didn't do
anything to him.
他们“为”他做了些事
They did things for him,
懂吗?
all right?
他们也要为你
做点工作
Just like they're gonna do
things for you.
你爸在想办法...
Your father's wondering...
他在想办法帮你
He's wondering how to help.
来
Come here.
不会有事的
It's all gonna be all right.
（叹气）
(NANCY SIGHS)
我们只有一个问题要
问你 儿子
We've got one question
for you,son,
然后你就去睡吧
今天够闹腾了
and we're gonna let you sleep.
It's been a big day.
我已经和
这两位
I have shared
our conversations
杰出的男人谈了谈
我向他们寻求到了指导
with these two fine, upstanding men and
I have asked them for their guidance.
(叹) 我只能告诉你
我们不能回答所有疑问
(SIGHS) I can tell you right now
we don't have all the answers.
但是能明确的是你自己
将决定下一步怎么走
But I do know that you gonna
hold the key to the next step.
你妈和我
我们不知道
Your mother and I,
we cannot see
你还怎么在这里
居住
a way that you can live
under this roof,
在车行
工作和服务
attend service and work
at the dealership
如果你要违背
我们基础信仰的本性
if you're going to fundamentally
go against the grain of our beliefs
违背上帝本帝
and against God himself.
现在我要向你提出
那个问题了 儿子
I'm gonna ask you
that question now, son.
说真心话
In your heart,
你希望改变吗?
do you want to change?
（叹）
(SIGHS)
是的
Yes.
我真的希望改变
Yes, I want to change.
靠近点 儿子
Come a little closer, son.
Wilkes牧师
Pastor Wilkes,
可以让耶稣
此刻照亮
could you ask Jesus
to shine his light
我的孩子吗?
on my boy at this time?
上苍 听我一言
施恩这个家庭
Heavenly Father, I ask your
blessing for this family.
赐予他们力量
Give them strength.
为你的
Unleash your power
迷途信徒
显示神威
for one of your flock, Jared,
who has lost his way.
我们祈祷 真主啊
愿他归来纯净
We pray, Lord,
that you make him pure
安然
无恙
and that you return him
safely back to us
愿您看清他所犯的糊涂
不过是一时迷失道路
and see that the errors of his way are
nothing more than a momentary straying.
我们祈祷
他找到信仰之道
We pray that
he see the path of faith
秉持诚实
and that he strive
to be honest
从而笑傲新生
and that he then find the joy
of a new life.
我们以他的名义祈祷
In His name we pray.
MARSHALL:阿门
MARSHALL: Amen.
Jared.
在大学里过的好吗？
How's college treating ya?
JARED: Uh 还算顺利
还不赖
JARED: Uh, it's going good.
Yeah. It's good.
你爸说让我
给你验验血
Your father's asked me
to take some of your blood.
他想让我...
He wants me to...
查查你的
睾丸素浓度
To check for
testosterone levels.
这种情况我真的很难堪 Jared
我...我也和你妈说明了这一点
I'm in a bit of a bind here, Jared, and
I... I said this to your mother, too.
是这样 我是个虔诚的信徒 毫无...
没有....毫无疑问
Now, lam a religious woman, there's...
There's no... No question,
但我也读过
医学院
but I have also been
to medical school,
那么 所以 你可以说
我一边信奉科学
and, well, you can say that
I hold science in one hand
一边又鼓吹上帝
而有时不容易平衡两者的关系
and God in the other, and that
is not always an easy balance.
我知道每个人都希望
我能给另一种说法
And I know that everybody would
like for me to say otherwise
然后开个
神奇的药丸
and send you down
to the pharmacy for a...
你就能被治愈
但不存在那种情况
A pill that would magically fix
you, but that's not gonna happen.
但我还是得验你的血
尽管我知道...
But I'm gonna take your blood
and I know...
我知道
啥也验不出来
I know
what it's gonna show me.
你再正常不过
再健康不过
That you are a perfectly normal,
very healthy teenage boy.
Jared 我不适合充当那个告诉你
你父母错了的角色
Jared, it's not my place to tell
you that your parents are wrong,
但咱就当
他们是错的
but let's say
that they are wrong.
我了解到下个月的什么计划
你爸替你报了名
I understand your father signed
you up for a program next month.
无论接下来发生什么
你始终保持你的选择权
Whatever happens next,
it is still your choice.
也许感觉上你没得选
但你有
It may not feel that way,
but it is.
你18岁了
You're 18.
你有什么...
想对我说的吗?
Do you have anything that you'd...
You'd like to say to me?
有什么问题吗?
Any... Any questions?
没
No.
VICTOR: Jared?
早上好
Morning.
那么 我想和你谈谈
这个
So, I wanted to talk to you
about these.
Uh, 你写的
Uh, your writing.
这句 "Remy 和 Lucy 在柳街的
午夜星空下会面"
This "Remy and Lucy met at midnight
under the stars on Willow Street."
那啥...
说说吧
What...
Tell me about these.
只... 只是...
只是个故事
It's... It's just...
It's a story.
是一个男生和一个女生
之间的爱情故事 对吗？
It's a love story about a boy
and a girl, correct?
是
但你写的时候
Yeah.
But were you thinking
脑海里是不是
描绘的两个男生?
about two boys
when you wrote this?
说实话
不是
Be honest.
No.
不，就是个故事而已
No, it's just a story.
大学作业
而已
It's just an assignment
for college.
Jared 我看了你大学
的书单 我这有
Jared, I've seen your reading
list for college. I have it here,
听着 《道林格雷的画像》
《洛丽塔》
and listen, The Picture
of Dorian Gray, Lolita,
我觉得 其中有些书...
有些书啊 Jared
I mean, some of these...
These books, Jared,
考虑到你现在
正经历的一切
considering everything that's
going on for you right now,
我看不到
大学学业
I don't know that college
is really the best thing
对你有
什么好处
for you to be
pursuing at all.
在我们这待一年也许是更
更好的选择
A year with us may be a much,
much better use of your time,
以目前的情况
given everything that I see,
和危机
来看
and everything
that's at stake.
我也愿意和你父母
说同样的话
And I'm willing to say that
to your parents.
听着 我和
你的父母多次交流过
Listen, I've had
many wonderful conversations
交流的很好
模范夫妻
with your parents.
Lovely people.
所以我对你有所了解
So, I know some of your story.
而且我看的出来
你的话
And I know that there is
quite a discrepancy
和他们的话有
很大出入
between what they were told
and what you said.
而且你得明白
他们的信仰无处安放
And you gotta understand that
they don't know what to believe,
痛苦不已
and that's very troubling
for them.
但我想
我们俩都清楚
But I think that
you and I know
你的故事远不止
这么简单
that there is a whole
lot more to the story,
而且 要知道 思想不是
我们的全部存在
and, you know, we're not here
on mere thoughts alone.
Jared 从...从这儿
收获最多的人
Jared, the... The people that
get the most out of this place
勇敢而且诚实
are the people that are just
really brave and honest
无论做过什么羞耻的事
都坦白
and lay everything on the
table, ugly as it seems,
都承认
人在做天在看
and fess up to
what God already sees.
你要做到了那样 我就可以
为你打造最好的未来
And then, I can really truly assess
what is the best future for you.
好吗 孩子？
Okay, son?
好 好吧
Yeah. Yeah.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
GARY: 上苍大人 今天
我祈求你的原谅
GARY: Dear Heavenly Father, today
I ask your forgiveness for my sins.
一年来 我们以
室友的身份同居
For a year, we lived together
under the cover of being roommates.
而事实上 我们一直
同性相交
But in reality, the whole time I
was committing the sin of sodomy.
后来我家人发现
并且让我醒悟
And then my family discovered the
truth and brought me back to my senses.
我醒悟了
我在自欺欺人
They helped me realize
that I was fooling myself.
我被骗了
That I was being fooled.
被一群罪恶之徒骗到
一种罪恶的生活里
That I was seduced into a life of
sin by all sorts of sinful people.
内心深处我知道
我当时是选择了弃明从暗
And I knew in my heart that I
had forsaken Jesus for Satan.
但现在
But now,
我醒悟到我的罪恶
l am awake to my sins.
我清醒了
I'm enlightened,
我来到了这儿
I'm here with all of you
曾经的我让我
感到恶心
and I'm disgusted at the
person that I once was.
我想请求上帝
原谅我
I want to ask God
for his forgiveness,
我想感谢
你们的陪伴
and I want to thank
all of you guys,
尤其是你 Skykes先生
especially you, Mr. Sykes,
你帮助我重回
正确的道路
for helping me get back
on the path to righteousness.
我们爱你 Gary.
We love you, Gary.
所有人：我们爱你 Gary
ALL: We love you, Gary.
(乡村
音乐)
(COUNTRY song
PLAYING ON RADIO)
别那样了 儿子
你知道我...
Please don't do that, honey.
You know I...
妈，到底谁出过事
什么时候?
Mom, who did that happen to
and when?
说真的 你知道吗?
(叹)
Seriously. Do you know?
(SIGHS)
你真的知道
出事的人吗?
Do you actually know
who that happened to?
从没出过事
It never happened.
(嘲笑)
(SCOFFS)
家长总是
要保护孩子
Parents want
to protect their kids.
-所以就撒谎
-我觉得那是善意的谎言
So they feed them lies.
I think that they're okay lies.
比如? 比如隐瞒
我要在这待多长时间?
What? Like not telling me
how long I might be here for?
知道吗 你们付的学费
You know the whole thing you
and Dad are paying for here
是替你们自己交的
is all about how messed up
we are by our parents.
他们了解你们事无巨细
却对你们有所隐瞒
They want to know about you. That's
why you can't know all about it,
因为这样才能
赚你们的钱
because then they wouldn't get
their money out of you.
我对你
做过啥 嗯?
What have I
ever done to you, hmm?
随你怎么说我
我没有昧着良心
Talk about me all you want.
My conscious is clean.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
宝贝
Honey.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
JARED: 我出去跑跑步
可以吗?
JARED: I'm gonna go for a run.
Is that okay, Mom?
嗯哼
Mmm-hmm.
(喘)
(PANTING)
去你妈的!
Fuck you!
去你妈的!
Fuck you!
(沉重呼吸声)
(BREATHING HEAVILY)
可去你妈的吧!
Fuck you!
(小声祈祷)
(NANCY PRAYING INDISTINCTLY)
请您
请您给我力量
Please,
please give me strength.
帮帮我
I need your help.
阿门
Amen.
(淋浴声)
(SHOWER RUNNING)
(叹)
(SIGHS)
我在看
无可争辩
I'm reading it.
No debate.
我有权知道
他们在教你啥
I have a right to know
what they're teaching you.
读这个东西
简直是煎熬
I don't see why anyone would read
it unless you absolutely had to.
我得知道
里面的内容
I need to know
what's inside.
成篇的
错别字
There are tons
of spelling errors in it.
我都想给他们
搞出个副本
I almost want to
mark up a copy for them.
但那读这本书
唯一的乐趣
But that would take away the
only real enjoyment you get
也没了
其实我觉得
from reading it,
because I guess it's
呆在那
很无聊
actually not much fun
to be there.
我也开始怀疑
我在那能不能获得改变
And I'm starting to wonder whether
it's really going to change me.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
"我们永远能重回
上弟创造我们的模样"
"We always come back
to Dog's true design."
万能的“上弟”啊
Almighty Dog.
道德修整：
Henry
Henry（划掉）
Xavier
（远处谈话）
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
MAN: 欢迎来到 上帝
对决科学...
MAN: Welcome to God
Versus Science...
谢谢
Thank you.
(静音)
(INAUDIBLE)
JARED：
你哪儿人 Xavier?
JARED：
Where are you from, Xavier?
XAVIER: 我出生在维也纳
XAVIER: I was born in Vienna.
然后去了加拿大
现在又到了这
I ended up in Canada,
and now I'm here.
JARED: 你信上帝吗?
JARED: Do you believe in God?
信 对
I do,yeah.
Wow.
我有质疑 但我
仍信上帝 是的
I question it, but I still
believe in God, yeah.
谁造的地球?
Who created the Earth?
(笑)
(CHUCKLES)
你喜欢
闲谈 哈?
You like a little
small talk, huh?
你相信有
恶魔吗?
Do you believe
in the Devil?
(吐气)
(EXHALES)
我像恶魔吗?
Did he look like me?
谁知道呢
I don't know.
你了解圣经里
的约伯吗?
Do you know Job
from the Bible?
没亲身了解过
Not personally.
听说跟他一起不怎么舒服
他老是抱怨
I hear he's not great company.
Always complaining.
(笑)
(CHUCKLES)
有时
我幻想自己是他
I imagine
I'm him sometimes.
然后上帝和恶魔
在打一个关于我的赌
And that God and the Devil
are having a bet over me.
有天
上帝领我
That one day
God will let me in
到他
设好的赌局里
on the experiment
he was having to test me.
我认为我们是我们自己的神
I think we're our own God.
我是说 上帝在我们体内
I mean, I think he's in us.
所有人 而不是
所说的 躲在
In all of us, not,
you know, somewhere
某个地方看着众生
hiding and watching.
别走
Stay with me.
没必要发生什么
Nothing needs to happen.
我保证
I swear.
我会向你证明
上帝不会惩罚你
I'll prove to you that
God won't strike you down.
CAMERON:
你错待我了老爸...
CAMERON:
You wronged me, Dad...
而且我很讨厌...
VICTOR：大声点 Cameron.
And I hate the way...
VICTOR: Louder, Cameron.
听不见 大声点 我让他
靠近点 他就在这
Can't hear you. Come on. I'll
bring him closer, there he is.
你错待我了 爸 而且我讨厌
自从你发现我的问题后
You wronged me, Dad, and I hate
you for the way that you treated me
你处置我的
方式
since you found out
about my problems.
不对 讲你的罪恶
No, about your sin.
讲那个
(CAMERON叹气)
Say that.
(CAMERON SIGHS)
"我的罪恶" 开始!
"About my sins." Go!
(呼)
(EXHALES)
"我的罪恶"
抓紧 Cameron
"About my sins,"
come on, Cameron.
"我的同性罪恶"
抓紧 Cameron.
"My homosexual sins."
Come on, Cameron.
Cameron!
我来吧
Cameron!
I can go.
没....没关系的...
I don't... I don't mind...
VICTOR: 别 这 样 Jared 每人都
按顺序 现在轮到Cameron了
VICTOR: No, no, no. Jared, everybody
gets a turn. This is Cameron's turn.
"我的罪恶" 赶紧的
发现我的罪恶
"About my sins!" Come on!
Found out about my sins.
我恨你从未听进去
我的话也从未承认过我
I hate that you never listen
to me or acknowledge me.
当你承认时
也不过
And when you do
acknowledge me,
是在朋友面前
嘲笑我
it's to make fun of me
in front of my friends.
"是为了嘲笑我"
"It's to make fun of me."
为了嘲笑我
还当着我朋友的面
To make fun of me
in front of my friends.
还有那次你说
你希望我不该出生
And that time that you told me that
you wished I'd never been born.
真的很伤人
That really hurt me.
VICTOR: Cameron...
你说
你很气愤
Now, you say
that you're angry,
但说句实话
我真的看不出来
but quite frankly,
I don't really see it.
你心里
纠结啥呢 Cameron, 啊？
Well, what's going on
in there, Cameron, huh?
你想改变吗?
Do you want to change?
现在你可能会
生不如死 孩子
Now you're going to wish
you hadn't been born, son,
因为你这个样子
上帝还怎么爱你
because God will not love you
the way that you are right now.
除非 你真的
想去改变
Unless you really
want to change.
怎么？ 说啊
Well? Come on!
(叹)
(SIGHS)
看来 算了吧
Well, I guess not.
算了 好吧
咱们休息会
I guess not. Okay.
Let's take a break.
你就待在这
直到你准备好
And you are going to stay here
until you are ready to go.
除了Cameron,
大家休息
Everybody but Cameron,
take a break.
(呼)
(EXHALES)
你就在那
坐一整天吧 孩子
I don't care
if you sit there all day, son.
JON: 你是来玩的吗?
JARED: 你啥意思?
JON: Is this all a game to you?
JARED: What do you mean?
听着 哥们
Listen, man.
你得好好想想
你为啥来到这
You gotta think about
why you went there.
你刚才在替他解围?
你疯了?
You're trying to bail him out?
Seriously?
而且还拍了拍他?
And touching him like that?
你以为没人看见?
Do you think no one saw?
你也看出来了
You saw him.
他很不爽
我并没有别的意思
He was very upset.
I didn't mean anything by it.
我应该举报你
I should report you.
独立自主 哥们 明白吗
True ownership, man. Okay.
道德修整
旨在独立自主
This is what
moral inventory is all about.
还有你别
总是盯着我
And you gotta quit
staring at me all the time.
这些冲动是我们
必须摒弃的
These are the urges
that we gotta stamp out.
好吗 你得控制住
Okay, you gotta control this.
你想在这白费功夫?
当然不是
Do you even want this to work?
Of course I do.
我们都在
费尽心思
We're all trying
to make this work.
我也感到吃力
像你一样
I'm having a tough time, too,
just like you are.
听着 我好着呢
Listen, I'm fine.
(MICHAEL咳嗽)
(MICHAEL CLEARS THROAT)
没看出来
It doesn't seem like it.
BRANDON: 你小子怎么
一个人在这?
BRANDON: Hey, what are you
doing in here alone?
不知道上厕所是
要有人陪同的吗
You're meant to attend bathroom
breaks with a staff member.
咋了? 你现在
又不想尿了?
What? Now you don't
have to pee?
还是我在这
影响你“独奏”了?
Or are you going to do
something solo?
规矩
就是规矩
That's why
they make them rules.
没有信任
Not to be trusted.
(JARED URINATIN
现在的情况
不允许信任
Not at this stage
of the game.
哼
Hmm.
像摩斯电码一样断断续续
Sounds like Morse code.
有什么话要说吗
Sending me a message,
基佬?
(断断)
faggot?
(STOPS URINATING)
(嘘嘘)
(CONTINUES URINATING)
(冲水)
(FLUSHING)
GARY: 渐渐明白
真正的情况了?
GARY: Starting to see it
for what it is?
你没事吧?
You Okay?
没事 没啥
I'm fine. I'm fine.
还是给你点
建议吧
I'm going to give you
some advice.
他们想看见什么
Play the part.
就让他们看见什么
Show them it's working.
情况在好转
You're getting better.
虚伪直到成为
不是吗？
Fake it until you make it,
right'?
你不会想沦落到
住在后面的房子里的
You don't want to end up in one of
those houses for any length of time.
我听说过
那儿情况很糟
I've heard the stories
and they're not good.
你这样下去
迟早要到那
And that's where you're
likely gonna end up.
Sarah已经住那儿了
Sarah's already there.
所以 演好这出 哥们
So, play the part, man.
之后 到了家
你得想好下一步
And then, once you're home, you
gotta figure out what to do next.
如果事情败露 你可能
得抛弃一切
If it comes down to it, you may
have to walk away from everything.
离开所有人
(门)
Everyone.
(DOOR OPENS)
今天辛苦了 Michael.
Thank you for today, Michael.
明早见
Mmm-hmm。
See you tomorrow.
Mmm-hmm.
马上该你上台了
你赶紧计划一下吧
You're gonna be on the podium any
day now, so you should have a plan.
除非你真的认为
你能改变
Unless you really think
you can change.
或真想改变
(车)
Or even want to.
(VEHICLE APPROACHING)
(鸣笛)
(HORN HONKING)
JARED: 我不想在这
呆着了
JARED: I don't want to be
here anymore.
MARSHALL: (叹息)
这是场考验 这...
MARSHALL: (SIGHING)
It's a trial. It...
JARED: 我呆着很不舒服
JARED: I don't feel good here.
没人乐意
你呆在那 儿子
Nobody feels good
about you being there, Jared.
我没...我没...我不
确定我有什么改变
I don't... I don't... I'm not
sure if I feel any different.
儿子 儿子 你还没到半途
就废了
Son, son, you're not even
halfway through.
你为什么不告诉我
我要在这呆多久?
Why didn't you tell me
how long I might stay for?
我没不知道
具体期限 Jared.
None of us knows
the answer to that, Jared.
大概只有你能决定 你懂吧
你只是得去尝试一下
It's kind of up to you. You know,
you just gotta give it a chance.
就像
马修之书说的
This is like
the book of Matthew.
魔鬼不会
只问你一遍
The Devil's not
going to ask you once,
他会一直纠缠你
一遍又一遍
he's going to ask you
over and over again, son.
你只要鼓起你的
勇气和耐心
And you have just gotta find the
strength and commitment inside you.
你能行的
好吗?
You can get through this,
okay?
好吗?
Okay?
好吧
天不早了 赶紧睡吧
All right.
It's late. Get some sleep.
晚安
Good night.
Jared?要迟到了
Jared? You're gonna be late.
我自己走过去 下午五点见
道德修整：
Henry（划掉）
Xavier
JARED: 我对男生有非分之想
JARED: I had thoughts of men.
学校的男生
Boys at school.
大学 我...
At college, I...
想象中
My imagination.
(模糊谈话声)
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
啥情况？
我也不知道
Hey, what's going on?
I have no idea.
Michael, 这什么阵势
戴上领带
Michael, what's going on?
Just grab a tie.
牧师Neil: 不幸的是
我们共聚一堂是为了告别
REVEREND NEIL: Sadly, we are
gathered here today to say farewell
我们的孩子 我们的朋友
我们得兄弟
to our son, our friend,
and our brother,
Cameron Van Heusen,
他自作自受 在昨晚
受到撒旦魔念的侵蚀
who by his own making last night,
fell prey to Satan's wishes.
Van Heusen老兄, 你希望
Brother Van Heusen, is this
你儿子成了这样?
what you want for your son?
不
No.
年轻人，你想进去吗？
Young man, is this you?
Cameron兄
这是你期望的吗?
Brother Cameron,
is this what you want?
CAMERON: (哭泣) 不是
你们俩 都过来
CAMERON: (SOBBING) No.
Both of you, come on.
把他领过去
Bring him down here.
CAMERON'S他爸: 走
-谁来驱逐这个恶魔
CAMERON'S DAD: Let's go. Who's
Who's gonna strike this demon down?
Cameron他爸: 我来
CAMERON'S DAD: I Will.
牧师: 滚出去!恶魔
打!
REVEREND NEIL: Out, you demon!
Hit it!
滚出去!
牧师: 就这样
Get out of him!
REVEREND NEIL: That's it.
他爸: 滚!
牧师: 走开 恶魔 走开
CAMERON'S DAD: Out! REVEREND
NEIL: Leave, demon! Leave!
(CAMERON哭泣)
(CAMERON SOBBING)
(呻吟)
(GROANING)
(CAMERON哭泣)
(CAMERON CONTINUES SOBBING)
(笑声)
(WOMAN LAUGHING)
(女孩远处谈论声)
(GIRLS TALKING INDISTINCTLY)
GIRL: Sarah, 走了！
GIRL: Sarah, come on!
XAVIER: 别走
XAVIER: Stay with me.
我向你证明
上帝不会惩罚你
I'll prove to you that
God won't strike you down.
(叹气)
(MAN SIGHS)
来
坐下
All right,
take your seat.
欢迎回来 孩子
Welcome back, son.
(CAMERON叹)
(CAMERON SIGHS)
VICTOR: 不知道你们咋样
但是今天 我 精神焕发
VICTOR: Now, I don't know about you
all, but today, ooh, I feel invigorated.
而且希望满满
而且觉得
And I feel hopeful
and a true sense that
今天在这一切
皆有可能
anything is possible today
in this room.
Cameron 感觉如何 孩子?
Cameron, how do you feel, son?
好极了
I feel great, sir.
感受到心中
上帝的真实存在了吗?
Do you feel the true presence
of God in your heart?
是的
Yes, sir.
那感觉真好
对吗？
And that feels great,
doesn't it?
是的 真好
Yes, sir, it does.
当然
For sure.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
我替你高兴 孩子
I'm happy for you, son.
(敲击讲台)
(TAPPING ON LECTERN)
道德修整
Moral inventory.
Jared 该你了 孩子
Jared, you're up, son.
来吧
Come on.
来啊 孩子
Come on, son.
好的 Michael
All right. Michael.
随时可以开始
And when you're ready.
（呼）
(EXHALES)
"我对男生有非分之想
"I had thoughts of men.
"学校的男生
"Boys at school.
"电视上的 大街上的
想象中的
"On TV. On the street.
In my imagination.
"大学里我握着一个男生的手
在他的床上度过了一整夜
"At college I held the hand of a boy and
I stayed through the night in his bed.
"对于这些想法和
让我后悔的行为
"For these thoughts and this
action for which I felt regretful,
"我想请求上帝..."
VICTOR: 别急 等等
"I'd like to ask for God's..."
VICTOR: Wait. Hold on.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
Jared.
说嘛 还有呢？
Come on. What else?
我从未...
I never...
我和大学里一个男生
呆了一夜
I stayed through the night
with a boy from college,
就只是
呆了一夜
but we never did
anything more.
听着 对上帝撒谎
毫无用处 Jared
Listen, don't even try
lying to God, Jared.
他全知道
He already sees.
所以 赶紧的 还有什么?
So, come on. What else?
(结巴)
(STUTTERS)
我基因表填的假的 我叔叔
Chris不是酒鬼
I lied on my genogram. My Uncle
Chris wasn't an alcoholic.
你怎么不跟我们讲讲
这个叫Henry的孩子?
Why don't you tell us
about this Henry boy?
你爸跟我
讲过他
That your daddy
told me about.
这不...
这不公平
That's not...
That's not fair.
怎么?
Why not?
那不是我的罪恶
(结巴)
That's not my sin.
你想浪费
我们的时间?
Do you want to waste
these people's time?
我没有
I'm not.
你有 这些人勇敢站出来
他们可没撒谎
No, these people who got up
here honestly and were brave...
好 那我随便编点
我可以编点东西
Well, I could make something
up, I could make something up.
你是想让我...你是
想让我编吗?
Is that what you... Is that
what you want me to do?
(结巴)
那不是罪恶吗?
(STAMMERING)
Isn't that a sin, too?
我是说 如果想法是罪恶
我请求上帝原谅
I mean, if thoughts are a sin,
I ask God's forgiveness for that,
但我不会
胡扯
but I'm not making
anything up.
(叹气)
(SIGHS)
好 那 好
Okay, then. Okay.
测谎椅
Lie chair.
我想利用
你的愤怒
I just want to make use
of some of this anger.
Uh 不用 大家坐好
做好就行 好吗？
Uh, wait. Guys, just sit.
Just stay where you are, okay?
他在这 Jared.
Here he is, Jared.
想象你爸就坐在这
Your father is sitting here
我想让你告诉他
他对你有多大影响
and I want you to tell him
how affected you are by him.
还有你有多气愤
And how angry you are.
告诉他你恨他
恨他做过的...恨他怎么...
Tell him how you hate him for the
things that he's... The way...
坐下吧 坐下
但我不生气
You can sit down. Sit down.
But I'm not angry.
是 我知道
他是做过令我
Yeah, I know.
And he's done things
难过的事 但...
但你生气了
that upset me, but...
But you are.
-你很生气 你只是不...
-他是让我失望过...
You're angry, but you don't...
He's let me down...
为什么我
必须得生气?
Why do I
have to be angry?
坐下
Just sit.
坐下
你当我是狗吗
Sit down.
I'm not a dog.
-I know -而且我不认为
谁要对我
I know. And I don't think
anyone is responsible
负责 所以我不明白
找个人去恨去责怪有什么用
for me, so I don't see how it's gonna
help picking someone to blame or hate.
你要没有恨 Jared 那
你哪来这么大的火?
If you don't hate anyone, Jared, then
where is all this anger coming from?
因为你
在惹恼我
Because you're
making me angry.
对嘛!
我想让你利用这恼火!
There you go!
I want you to use that!
我不会装得好像我很我爸一样
我不恨他
I'm not gonna pretend I hate my father.
I don't hate my father.
Jared, 你恨他
Jared, you do.
你根本不了解我!
你们全是疯子!
You don't know me!
You're all crazy!
所有人!
Hey!我没让..
All of you!
Hey! I didn't...
只是... Jared.
Just... Jared.
你该坐我对面
You're in my chair.
-满意了吗！我恨你！-Jared
There you go! I hate you! Jared!
但这又
有什么用？
But how
does that help?
Jared!
(VICTOR CLEARS THROAT)
(喘)
(PANTING)
Jared!
谁在前面办公室?
Who's in the front office?
Jared! 孩子 咱们谈谈
Jared! Son, let's talk. Son.
Hey! Michael!
给我！
MICHAEL: Hey, hey!
Give it to me!
-JARED: 我拿了东西
就走 - Jared.
JARED: I want my things
and I want to go. Jared.
VICTOR: Michael! Hey!
Hey! Michael!
出去!
Hey! Michael!
Get out of the room!
过来 孩子
Come here, son.
Jared!
嘿 听着 你现在的反应
其实很正常 好吗
Hey, listen. What you're having
is a natural response, okay.
调整...调整呼吸
Just... Just breathe.
(叹气)
(VICTOR SIGHS)
-Jared! -JARED: Hey,
给我点时间
Jared! JARED: Hey,
I just need a minute.
让我静静
给你点时间 好的
Just go away.
Take a minute, okay.
(拨号)
(DIALING)
(哭泣)
(SOBBING)
接电话啊 妈
Please pick up, Mom
-Jared？
-妈...
NANCY: Jared?
Mom...
-Jared? -赶紧来接我
赶紧来
Jared? I need you to
come get me, please.
出什么事了?
What's the matter?
快过来 我出不去了
What...
Please, I'm in trouble.
What...
发生什么了?
What's happened?
我们最好能够
让他缓缓
Best thing that we can do is probably
ease him back into the session.
-嘿 孩子
-我叫我妈来了
Hey, son.
I called my mom
她马上就会来接我
and she's coming to get me.
VICTOR:
听着 你要清楚
VICTOR:
Listen, you gotta understand
你只是一时冲动
一会儿就过去了
what you're going through
right now is just a moment.
-一时冲动? 一时?
-好吧
A moment? A moment?
Okay.
我完全能理解
你现在的心情
And I feel exactly
what you're going through.
让我们单独谈谈
其他人应该回避一下
I think that you and I should just
get everybody gone and we just talk.
我不想谈
我想走
I don't want to talk.
I want to go.
但 Jared
你不能走
Well, Jared,
I don't want you to.
我希望你留下
I want you to stay.
不过 (结巴)
我读过规定
Well, (STUTTERS)
I read the rules
没有一条说
你能阻止我离开
and none of them say
you can stop me from leaving.
我不拦你 你能把
Brandon找来吗？
I wouldn't. Can you just check
where Brandon is, please?
如果你或任何人
强制我 这都是证人
And if you or anyone puts their
hands on me, I have witnesses.
没人会
强制你
Nobody's going to
put their hands on you.
为什么要那样?
Why would anybody do that?
来坐下
Come sit.
我们等你妈
到这 好吗?
We're gonna wait
for your mom, okay?
耶稣 真主啊
聚力量于Jared
Jesus, our Savior,
please focus on Jared.
让他了然他需要的
力量以及勇气
Let him see the strength
and courage that he needs.
请您将这儿所有人的智慧
灌注给他
I want you to fill him right now with
all the wisdom of everybody in this room
让他知道这儿的人多么爱他
多么在乎他
to show him how much they love him
and how much they care about him.
-坚强点!
-他走上的
Be strong!
His journey
飞蛾扑火的道路
最终只能面对飞灰
into the fire that he's walking
into and what he's willing to face.
-你是个男人
-希望你向他指明
You are a man.
May you open his eyes
你拥有的
无上智慧...
and see the wisdom
that you have...
-Jared
-Mom!
-Jared 孩子 出什么事了?
Jared, honey, what's happened?
-mom
-小子 坐下
-老妈他们不让我走！
Hey, hey! Sit back down! Mom,
Mom,they're not letting me go!
不是那样
我们不是在拦着他
It's not that
we're not letting him go.
赶紧 把门打开
VICTOR: 先等一等 Jared.
Come on. Open this door.
VICTOR: Just hold on, Jared.
-你是谁？
Eamons女士 我是Victor Sykes
NANCY: Who are you?
Mrs. Eamons, my name is Victor Sykes.
-我们电话上谈过
We spoke on the telephone.
-我怎么不记得
开门
I don't remember that.
Open the door.
我和你丈夫
谈过几次
Well, I spoke with your
husband a couple times.
Jared现在只是一时的举动
是角色扮演活动引发的
Jared's just having a moment here
borne out of the role-playing exercise.
不是！ 不是那样的 老妈
让他开门
No, no! That's not true. Mom,
tell him to open the door.
慢着 闭嘴
马上把门打开 Sykes先生
VICTOR: Slow down. Enough.
Open the door now, Mr. Sykes.
我们能...
我说开门听见没
Can we just all...
I said open the door now!
再不开门
我报警了
I'm gonna call the police
if you don't open this door.
VICTOR：没必要那么做
BRANDON: 消停点 现在
VICTOR: There is no need for that.
BRANDON: Slow down. Right now.
让他走!
Let him go!
你还好吗 儿子？
让他走
Just let him go.
VICTOR: 我只是...
我认为...
VICTOR: I just...
I think that...
Jared, 咱们走
Jared, come on.
我只是...只是觉得
这对他的发展
I just... I think it's more
important for his
现在来说很重要
如果他...
development right now
that he...
NANCY: 别听他胡说
上车 上车
NANCY: Don't even listen to him.
Get in the car. Get in the car.
VICTOR: 你会
毁了这个孩子
VICTOR: You're gonna
ruin that child.
你有什么
执照吗 Sykes先生?
What are your actual
qualifications, Mr. Sykes?
我还从没问过 嗯?
I never asked. Hmm?
你是个医生? 你是吗?
心理医生?
Are you a doctor? Are you?
Psychologist?
我是说 正规吗?
是吗?
I mean, a proper one?
Are you?
不是
No.
看来不是
I didn't think so.
(叹)
(SIGHS)
你该感到羞愧!
Shame on you!
我也该感到羞愧
Shame on me, too.
不要脸!
Shame on you!
SERVER: 需要什么?
SERVER: Can I help you?
Jared：我不确定
我是要呆着还是要走
JARED: Uh, I'm not sure
if I'm staying or going.
SERVER: 好的
那 随时恭候
SERVER: All right.
Well, let me know.
我和你爸谈了
I talked to your father.
他想让你回去
He wants you to go back.
(共叹)
(BOTH SIGH)
我跟他讲我们家里见
我告诉他我们不会回那个鬼地方
I told him we'll see him at home.
I told him you're not going back.
还记得那天晚上
You know that night
Pastor Wilkes和 Jim
来我们家吗?
when Pastor Wilkes and Jim
came to the house?
他们敲定了
如何处置你 而我就...
Those men decided what
to do with you and I just...
我顺从了
我总是这样
I fell into line,
like I usually do.
他们说有时你得伤害一个人
才能帮助他们
They say sometimes you gotta hurt
a child in order to help them
也许有些事情
是这个道理
and that may be so
with some things,
但一个母亲能
察觉异样
but a mother knows
when something isn't right.
我看的很清楚
And I knew in my bones
那是苦口劣药
this wasn't hurting to help.
我让你失望了
当时没有插手此事
I was just letting you down
and I kept my mouth shut.
我会永远后悔我没有
And I will always regret that.
但我现在
不再沉默了
But I can do
a different thing now.
我现在有机会
Now that I have a chance.
我来应付你爸
I'll handle your father.
他也该顺从我
一回了
He can fall into line with me
for a change.
有些人 他们去
教堂不是干正事的
Some folk, they don't go to
church for the right reasons.
你知道 我说的是
什么样的人
Now, you know the type of
person I'm talking about.
他们只是出席
They just turn up.
他们作为信徒
却没有每天
They don't use every day
of their Christian life
赞美真主并
宣扬他的箴言
to praise the Lord and help
bring others to His word.
他们可能就住在你附近
可能是你的朋友
It might be your neighbor,
might be your friend,
你们可能只在
教堂见过他们
it might be just a face
you only ever see at church.
他们只是露个面
They just turn up.
有件事
我确信
I will tell something
that I know.
出席教堂活动
不代表你是教徒
Just turning up to church
does not make you a Christian.
成员:
说得好 阿门
CONGREGATION MEMBER:
Yes, sir. Amen.
MARSHALL: 研读圣经
研读主的箴言
MARSHALL: Study the Bible.
Study His word.
我敢保证
I can guarantee you,
你任何疑问
every question you have,
都能得到
解答
you gonna find an answer
in this book.
成员: 阿门
CONGREGATION MEMBER: Amen.
(门铃)
(DOORBELL RINGS)
(敲门) 儿子 你
认识一个叫 Cameron Van Heusen的男孩吗?
(KNOCKING ON DOOR) Honey, um, do
you know a boy, Cameron Van Heusen?
认识 他来了?
Yeah. Is he here?
不 不 不
警察来了
No. No, no.
That's the police.
看起来 这个男孩他
他昨晚自杀了
Apparently, this boy Cameron
killed himself last night.
他们想问你
几个问题
They want to ask you
some questions.
(高昂音乐)
(UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYING)
(招呼)
(ALL GREETING)
嘿 你好啊
你好
Hey! How you doing?
Good.
见到你很好!
Nice to see you! I'm good.
-不用了 -给
I'm good. Here.
好像
是在洗碗机里
Yeah, I think
they're in the dishwasher.
来嘛 Chris
一起嘛
Come on, Chris.
Join us.
女声: 厨房有什么好呆的
WOMAN: Get out of the kitchen.
(交谈)
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
我都没感觉
I didn't even feel it.
(JARED叹气)
(JARED SIGHS)
(消息提示音）
(MESSAGE ALERT CHIMES)
恐怖车祸少年断手
(笑)
(CHUCKLES)
(消息提示音)
(MESSAGE ALERT CHIMES)
瞧见没，听妈的就对了
我们读了你的文章 晦涩但是很棒
老爸觉得呢 他怎么说？
感恩节见？
(打字)
(TYPING)
(手机振动)
(CELL PHONE VIBRATING)
Mom...
NANCY：我给他看来着
文章在他那 他会看的
NANCY". I gave it to him,
he has it, and he'll read it.
他知道他得看
He knows he has to.
妈 这很重要
你能让他接电话吗?
Mom, it's important he reads
it, can you just put him on?
我现在在Little Rock
和你Mary阿姨在一起 所以...
I'm calling you from Little
Rock, I'm with Aunt Mary, so...
啥 为什么?
Wait. Why?
你应该给
家里打个电话
You should just
call him at home.
怎么了?
What happened?
没事 阿姨店里缺人手
我就来帮忙
Nothing, she just needed some help
with the shop, so I came down here,
我今晚就回去
我...
and I'm driving back tonight,
I'm...
我是说 没事
没啥问题
I mean, nothing.
Nothing is wrong.
NANCY:
真的 一切正常
NANCY:
Seriously, nothing is wrong.
来了怎么不
通知一声？
Why didn't you tell me
you were coming?
他在这么?
Is he here?
他走了
He left.
今天周日 你要急着找他
你得去教堂
It is Sunday, if it's urgent,
you're gonna have to go to church.
你怎么不去?
Why aren't you there?
你怎么不去教堂?
Why aren't you at church?
我有时候去
我支持你爹而且...
I go, sometimes.
I support your dad and...
妈 你俩
闹矛盾了？
Mom, what's going on
with you two?
Jared 这...
Jared, 其实...
你爸知道
He knows.
我不能在那群...
I can't be around the...
我爱上帝 上帝爱我
I love God, God loves me.
我还爱我的儿子
And I love my son.
就这么简单
That simple.
对你爸来说 情况
更复杂一点
For your father, it's a
little more complicated.
我希望不是如此
但事实如此
I wish it wasn't,
but it is.
（叹）
(SIGHS)
(关车门)
(CAR DOOR CLOSES)
(呼)
(EXHALES)
你听说我在
纽约要出版的文章了吗?
Did you hear about the article
I've got coming out in the Times?
你知道
写的什么吗?
Do you know
what it's about?
我不想吵架
I won't get into a fight.
你妈跟我讲了 儿子
Your mother told me, son.
我不是在示威
It's not a fight.
我觉得我应该
应该让你知道
I'm just doing the right thing.
I'm letting you know.
我还在写
I've written more,
出版商正考虑
我能凑本书出来
and the publishers are talking about
me putting together a whole book.
不是硬要你
去读
You don't need to read
any of it.
只是你得知道
我有作品了
I just needed you to know
that it might be out there.
好
Well,
我知道了
now I know.
但你读了
也许有好处
But it might be good
for you to read.
因为你从未问过
那儿都发生了什么
Because you never really asked
what went on there.
你从未了解
那儿的员工 或是...
You never really knew
the staff or...
或是...
说的没错
Or...
You're right.
没错
You're right.
情况浮现时
我的反应和往常一样
When the situation came up, I did
what I've often done in my life.
就是去咨询
更智慧的人
I sought the counsel
of wiser men
然后听从他们的建议
and I followed their advice.
你现在会怎么做?
What would you do now?
作为现在的
大人物?
Now that you are
running things?
别说了
Enough.
睡吧
Good night.
(低语)
(SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY)
(开门）
(DOOR OPENS)
就当是为了我
For me.
有什么需要
帮忙的吗?
Is there something
you need help with?
我待会还
得赶飞机
Because you know
I gotta make my flight.
我知道 本来是圣诞节
给你准备的
Yeah, now, this was
going to be for Christmas.
但是 uh 你知道
你妈告诉我你有时
But, uh, you know,
your mother tells me
会开到纽约北边
去写作
you like to drive upstate
sometimes to write.
爸 我就住在纽约
我不需要车
Dad, I live in New York.
I don't need a car.
她还告诉我
你喜欢手写
She also tells me
you like to write by hand
当你还不用
电脑的时候
before you use
your computer.
和我一样
Just like me.
这笔是用
以色列土长的香椿木做的
This pen is made from a
cedar tree grown in Israel.
指引着我
Guided me.
自从到了新的教堂
我每篇布道的稿子
I've written every sermon
that I have ever delivered
都是用这笔
写的
in this new church
with this pen.
作家给作家的礼物
One writer to another.
我装不
下去了
I don't want to
pretend anymore.
我们不需要
抽空相处
We don't need to
spend time together.
我们不需要交谈
We don't need to speak
除非我们
坦然相对
unless we're going to
talk to each other properly.
我是说...
Like...
（结巴） 你真的
伤害过我
(STUTTERS) You've done some
things that have really hurt me.
比如你只是浅显的
了解我在大学的经历
Like you never asked if there
was more to my story at college.
你从没问过
我还好吗
You never asked
if I was okay.
我只关心事情
对你有什么影响
You were too focused
on how it affected you.
许多事情
我们都没谈过
There's so many things
that we've never spoken about.
而且我不知道
我们还有机会聊吗
And I don't know
if we ever will.
Yeah.
其实 这一切都
会留给你
You know, all this was
going to be yours.
我是说 它都还是你的 但我是说
它由你来运营 你靠它谋生
I mean, it still will be, but I meant
to run and to make a living from.
我明白
I understand.
我们走的路不同
We all got our own paths.
但事实上
我希望你安好
The truth is
I want you to do well.
我希望你
活得精彩
I want you
to have a great life.
我爱你
I love you.
但我也装不下去了
But I can't pretend either.
有些东西
我不赞同
There are things
I disagree with.
而且我承认 我
说实话我 ...
And I'll admit, I'll be
honest, I'm, you know...
我排斥我当不了爷爷的事实
这样很自私自傲
lam being prideful when I resent the
fact that I may never be a grandparent.
但 事实就是那样
Now, that's just the truth.
我很不愿意承认
我伤害过你
It's hard for me to admit
that I have hurt you.
而且如果坚持
信仰以及面对过去
And that with my beliefs
and with all that's gone on,
我清楚我可能
作茧自缚不能把你留住
I understand I may have
set myself up to lose you.
我得扪心自问
问上帝我能否接受
And I've had to ask myself
and God if I'm ready for that.
我不想失去你
I do not want to lose you.
我没感觉到
Well, it doesn't feel
like that.
我不能再避开你
不能再聊以度日
I'm sick of avoiding you. I'm
sick of talking about nothing.
我受够了
I'm sick Of it.
我是同性恋也是你的儿子
I'm gay and I'm your son.
这两件事
不会改变
And neither of those things
are going to change.
我们就认了吧
Okay, so let's deal with that.
或者井水不犯河水
Or let's call it a day.
互不拖累
却多可悲
Both of us would be okay,
but that would be a shame.
我不会改变
没有改变我这一说
I'm not changing.
There's no changing me.
天晓得我尽力了
God knows I tried.
那么 如果你真心
So, if you mean it,
发自肺腑的爱我
if you really mean that,
想把我
留住
and you're not ready
to lose me,
生而为人我很抱歉
但要改变的是你
then I'm sorry, but you're going
to have to be the one to change.
我明白
I understand.
我也会尽力
I am going to try.
(断音) I'll try.
(VOICE BREAKING) I'll try.
我得走了-
I gotta get going-
爸
Dad,
我请我妈来我这
过圣诞
I've invited Mom to my place
for Christmas.
是吗
Yeah.
也欢迎您光临
You're welcome to come, too.
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